Love Them while you can.

This is a hard post to write. I may not even post it. We had our cat die tonight. One of the dogs was playing with her a little too roughly. I found her wet and stressed. She died in my arms. She died in my arms. The same arms that I held her in as I promised her that I would always take care of her.

I broke down sobbing.

I tried to hold it together, but I could not do it. This all over a cat that we had for less than 2 months. Smoke was a rescue. She was left at the center by some ladies who tried to sell her. Later I found her in the center. Jackie had mentioned wanting a cat. So I texted her and she said to bring her to her. Smoke lived up to her name, she was a smoke color grey and I joked she darted around the house like a smoke trail.

Now Smoke was Jackie’s pet. The 5 dogs have adopted me already. But then Jackie went out of town for a month, and I was left taking care of smoke. I jokingly called her a pirate since she liked to sit on my shoulder as I walked around. She slept in the crook of my neck at night and her purr was wonderful.

But I realize that my tears were not just for Smoke. I am grieving. Not just for Smoke. But I am tired of death. Today I dealt with 2 families about funerals. I see loss and suffering every day. I grieve the loss of health I see in people I care about. And I can do nothing for them. Just like I promised to take care of Smoke and failed. I promised to love others and I cannot protect them from changes in health.

All I can do is to love them and care for them the best that I can. Just like I did with Smoke. Smoke is/was loved for the time we had her.

2 responses to “Love Them while you can.”

  1. And love is the glue that binds all life forms together, I opine. βœŒπŸ»πŸ˜‡βœŒπŸ»

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  2. I am so sorry for your loss. Kitties give themselves to one if you are lucky two people. Please don’t bring another cat home if the dog is still there, or go find the meanest, missing one ear Tom cat that can hold his own. May this season of Christs birth bring blessings to you both

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